It doesn’t matter how many times you fall, what matters is how many times you get up.
I was getting my lashes done at Laura’s Beauty & Wellness at home in Helsinki. The owner, Laura, with her pink hair and tattooed arms, was excited to share with me her dreams and goals, which in general I value but I had had a terrible day and all I really wanted was to shut up and take a nap. Little did I know I was on a date with destiny.
“My dream is to change someone’s entire life”, Laura said to me as she explained to me her passion for personal training and life coaching, for helping people achieve their biggest dream. Something in me stopped, but I somehow didn’t manage to get a word out of my mouth. How could I tell this stranger I was the one she was looking for? How could I tell her she was meant to change my life? And that I had been looking for her for some time now.
For a couple of years now I’ve dreamed of being able to get a team of health professionals to help me on the road to recovery. I have always been bigger than your average, but after a serious horse riding accident in Australia in 2008, my health has gone downhill at lightning speed. I broke my spine and injured my right leg and I can still feel the impact every single step I take. Going back to that unfortunate October day 9 years ago, I remember the fall and I remember sitting in our car on the way to the hospital in pain. And I remember the pain fading away halfway to the hospital when I said: “I no longer feel my legs.” I thought that was it. That was the fall to land in a wheelchair for the rest of my life, but I got a second chance. After some days in the hospital, I could feel my toes again. And eventually, I walked again.
But even if I was lucky to stand on my own two feet, everything became harder. I was in constant pain for years and lived off of painkillers. I was no longer that strong muscular curvy woman I was used to being.
I was a shadow of my past self.
The last few years have included several failed attempts to get back into the shape I was before, but I simply haven’t been able to do it all by myself. There have been times when I’ve worked out with a personal trainer, but it’s difficult to find someone to walk with you for the entire journey instead of just a few sessions here and there. And due to the history of what happened to me on that unfortunate October day in 2008, I need someone with enough knowledge, patience, and understanding to be able to really help me get better for good.
“Well, you could change my entire life”, I eventually added. I told Laura my story and I think we both knew there was something more to this day than just pure coincidence that we came across each other’s paths. With tears of joy on my face, I walked home and I knew this was the first real step for getting over my biggest obstacle.
I will be sharing this journey with you as honestly as I dare to on the blog and on Instagram during the next one year starting now. Laura is helping me with my diet and working out with me every week. And together we have already set a date for a grande finale next year; a trip to the Maldives in September 2018.
Laura herself is a professional Personal Trainer and a Life Coach to be. And thanks to her, I will also be supported by a Sports Massage Therapist, Physiotherapist and a Yoga Teacher.
We have spent the past 2 months planning everything from detailed excel sheets to social media and slowly starting with going to the gym and learning to eat better one step at a time.
The difference between those that that succeed and those that fail is, those that succeeded never gave up.
My goal is not to be thin, but to be happy in my own skin. I’ll always be curvier than the average and I’m happy like that. And I feel as if my mission is to remind other women too that they don’t need to be a size 0 to be fabulous. But I want to feel healthy and energised. Strong and able to do exactly what I want to. To even eventually get back on the horse. I want my life to no longer be determined by my accident.
And what makes this timing so special and important is that next year it has been 10 years since the accident and I can no longer hide behind its shadows. And what’s more, I will be turning 30 next May. So let’s get this show on the road – the mission to lose 30 kilograms before the age of 30.
30 before 30.